I’ve noticed that 90% of what I worry about never really happens. Course I’m an “over thinker” so worry has been a constant struggle for me. I’d like to think I’m a recovering “over thinker” as I’m trying to just allow myself not to obsess on thoughts. Recovering being the operative word here. Needless to say, I’m finding much of what I worry about or “fear” never actually comes to fruition, except mostly in my head.
I tend to repeat in my mind negative words or statements concerning situations or events that have happened in my life. Sometimes, I repeat the negative statements and I’m not even aware I’m doing it. I’m working hard to catch this as soon as or before it occurs, as repeating the negative “loop” in my head, results in my subconscious mind accepting it as truth and eventually attracts corresponding undesirable events and situations in my life to occur. Words and statements actually have the ability to work in two ways, building or destroying. And a repeated negative loop I believe has the ability to create a reality.
Negative thoughts will more times than not, allow the fear to take over, and can make the negative thought become reality. Nothing is realistic or unrealistic, it is how I choose to think about any given situation. I will create my own reality. I’m working on out thinking or out talking the negative thoughts that seem to dominate my head. I’m determined to get the little negative voice under control and replace it with a little positive voice that will allow me to take risks, and grow into something Pure, Positive and Powerful……
I refer to the words Pure, Positive and Powerful as The Three P’s: a good friend once spent an entire evening forcing me to learn about. I actually added my own P to it which is Perseverance, which technically was his word also, but I added it to the Three P lesson. I couldn’t quite grasp the Three P’s at first, because powerful is not something I equate with myself, for that matter I didn’t equate Pure or Positive either. I am learning though, that I am all those things and more. It has taken me much time and effort to understand the value of these three (four) words.
I don’t have to shout it from the rooftops, I don’t need to wear a sign, as I feel it, it emanates out of me, and that in turn, allows me to work through problems, versus worrying about them, not argue them in my head and most of all, it allows me not to be stopped short and shut down because of fear.
When I put forth my effort of the Three P’s plus one, I’m able to rationally make a decision or see a view point I might otherwise have immediately taken on as personally against me, or possibly going to harm me, and look at it objectively, create a plan in my head and move forward. Listen first, clarify second, react last.
I’m resolute in taking little steps to get outside my comfort zone, with my first focus to be my job, that has become a stress filled nightmare that causes me to take aspirin all day long, and quite frankly I do not believe you are suppose to have headaches everyday. I realize and accept responsibility for the fact that I’ve remained at this job far too long.
Although at times unbearable I see that it is comfortable, it’s a bad habit. It provides money to meet my needs, but there is no happiness that comes with it, no enjoyment, there is nothing in it for me, there is no where to go there. It’s a toxic environment to exist in and sadly it carries over into my personal life and that is bad for the soul. It is also not something I want my child to think is the way work or life should be.
In my over thinking the situation I know its illogical to stay somewhere that causes stress and unhappiness. However it will be baby steps on leaving, as the economic climate doesn’t promote jumping jobs, and responsibility comes before happiness.
To live a life of quality, to be comfortable in my own skin, to work at a job where I’m respected and rewarded, to not compromise my values or have to play games to achieve desires, is my goal. I want to be a defining person and make a difference…..
That is the goal for now, and I will invoke The Three P’s plus one, in my thoughts, words and hopefully actions.
I watch people around me who I truly admire and I see they are successful because they act on their dreams and visions. They are not afraid to fail and they address the issues upfront and honestly. They don’t sit back and wish things were different. They don’t “hope” for the best, and they certainly don’t say, “God must not want it to happen” when things don’t turn out.
These are the people I want to learn from, to follow to emulate.
“Argue your limitations, and sure enough, they are yours” Richard Bach, Illusions
“You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it true. You may have to work at it, however” Richard Bach, Illusions
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